What a week… goodness! I have been aproved to work again so I am back dealing with all the day to day running of the shop. I love this place but I had more fun on my couch just handling the big things. I also after a longtime coming asked my boyfreind to move out. At first I panicked and thought I had made a hugh mistake but after a partial week of peace and quite I have CHANGED MY MIND. What a relief to have him gone! It really is like that song lyric I really miss him but I’m sooo glad he’s gone. Being alone is no fun and bound to get worse before it gets better but right now I am happy and I can’t say I have been lately. He says my back injury pain did my talking but I don’t think so I think I was genuinely sick of him and not inlove anymore. He was crude you know something I never realized before we lived to gether this time yes we did it before with the same result.What is it that Dr says the definition of crazy is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result. I am trying to take a good look at myself and start a change. my outlook on life and people has changed and not for the good. Yes pain can be a catalist for a less than charming outlook but I have let everything get to me. My x always says “You take things too personal ” So I will go from here on my own for a while and try to find me, the person I think I lost somewhere : ) See you Tomorrow…Kathryn
MLK
I just finished an article on CNN about the driver of Martin Luther King, and wanted to share my opinion which is ofcorse why I blog. I was never a fan, after hearing that MLK might have been unfathful as a husband. It overshawdowed everything I ever knew about the man. HOWEVER I don’t do not disagree with there being absolute postive HEROS in the fight for equality. My mother who was from Florida was dragged from there as a child to the middle of Nebraska by her father who became a mailman after serving in the war. Because …he hated blacks and there weren’t any here! Really I am not making that up! He was a bigot and my mother held him up as someone who was ignorant and NOT to be admired by anyone for it. My mother and father brought me up to be a person who believes the only fair way to judge another person is by words and deeds, and that has nothing to do with color. Now I am not that admiring of Jesse Jackson or Al Sharpton (especially ) either who I belive are the black counter parts to my grandfather except that I belive the difference between a bigot and a racist is this… a bigot such as my grandfather is ignorant and a racist is a bigot with a plan. And thats all I am going to say at this point ,you can read anything you want into my statement. Now for the people I believe are the true HEROS of that time. My mom and dad for two! People who taught thier kids to judge the world one person at a time not by races or colors or accents. And I believe the people who sat at the woolworth counter ,the brave innocent kids who walked that terrible “gaunlet ” to go to shcool in Arkansas, and Mrs. Parks an everyday woman who took a stand for her ideas are TRUE heros. Yes MLK was a figure head and probably knew he would pay with his life which makes him a martor not a hero. Those other people had to live with what they did all thier lives and when I would see Mrs. Parks on the TV she never looked proud or arrogant but flustered by the attention because she did what she thought was right back then NOT what would make her a well known hero. Anyway to you people every where trying ( or who tried ) to make a difference in the world by your actions ….bless you for being here. There are those of us who admire you beyond belief that you will never know about. See you tomorrow…Kathryn
BACK FOR MORE
Well after a time a way healing from a rather severe back injury I am looking forward to sitting infront of my computer again. I am full of rant ,rage ,happiness and thoughts so here I go. Before I go any farther I would like to say a little about Drs, hospitals and nurses. What a bunch of idiots! Of corse I knew that already after working in a hospital for 10 years but give me a break and the thought that nurses are angels of mercy PALEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They are lazy bitches for the most part and I worked in an OR so I know for a fact that’s the truth. Yes there are good ones but they are far between. And to the dr who diagnoised my back as muscle strain, when it was a slipped disc. Well you are on my crappy list! I suffered for 2 months because I was too young to have “real “back problems when I had a slipped disc and now know I suffer from arthritis in my spine, which they would have known if they had listened to what I was saying instead of looking at me as a healthy looking woman and making the ASSUMPTION that nothing really bad could be going on in there. K enough of the grumpy ranting I am glad to be better and aware of what is ahead of me. I am reserching now a way of life that I can follow to help myself recover and hold off the affects of the arthritis. I already suffer from RSD however luckily it is only in my right foot and has stayed put there for 10 years, a blessing when you consider many people who have RSD have it in thier entire body eventually. So I feel I am lucky and cursed at the same time, it is funny how often those two things coincide. Any who I am glad to be back at my desk and free to write any damn thing I want : ) Have a lovely day, see you tomorrow…Kathryn
